Inner Critic?

Excellent post from Pam Hogeweide this morning. Really hit the nail on the head for me!

As I said over on Pam’s blog, my inner critic points fingers at me. She is very worldly. She says I’m broken and useless. Didn’t have a normal childhood or teenage years so must be worthless. Illness and abusive marriage must have somehow made me ‘less than’. Inner critic (Inga Crittick?) says the world laughs at me because I didn’t get my A-levels (the exams one takes at 18), didn’t go to university like my peers, never had boyfriends, first-ever boyfriend became abusive first husband, stuck with him for 10 miserable years because I didn’t have the common sense to leave, haven’t had a job since I was 21…

She’s very worldly, isn’t she? God says I’m His precious child (hallelujah!!!) but sometimes I listen to her without even realising it. She’s so sneaky… She says that nothing I do is good enough unless I’m the best or unless I do it perfectly or unless it will ‘get me somewhere’. What kind of a screwed up b***h is she? I don’t like her! Why on earth do I listen to her?


Jeremiah’s inner critic said he wasn’t ‘enough’, but God said:

“Before I formed you in the womb I knew [and] approved of you [as My chosen instrument], and before you were born I separated and set you apart, consecrating you…”

Then said I, “Ah, Lord God! Behold, I cannot speak, for I am only a youth.”

But the Lord said to me, “Say not, ‘I am only a youth’; for you shall go to all to whom I shall send you, and whatever I command you, you shall speak…”

from Jeremiah 1:5-7 (Amplified)

Mary, Jesus’ mother, thought she wasn’t ‘enough’, yet:

‘…the angel Gabriel was sent from God to a town of Galilee named Nazareth…

But when she saw him, she was greatly troubled and disturbed and confused at what he said and kept revolving in her mind what such a greeting might mean.

And the angel said to her, “Do not be afraid, Mary, for you have found grace (free, spontaneous, absolute favor and loving-kindness) with God…”

from Luke 1:26-30 (Amplified)

And Jesus Himself said:

“…if you forget about yourself and look to me, you’ll find both yourself and me.

“We are intimately linked in this harvest work… Accepting a messenger of God is as good as being God’s messenger. Accepting someone’s help is as good as giving someone help. This is a large work I’ve called you into, but don’t be overwhelmed by it. It’s best to start small. Give a cool cup of water to someone who is thirsty, for instance. The smallest act of giving or receiving makes you a true apprentice. You won’t lose out on a thing.”

from Matthew 10:39-43 (The Message)

What does your inner critic say to you? When he or she tries to tell you you’re not good enough, remember Jeremiah, remember Mary, and remember Jesus’ own words: start small. You’re always good enough because He made you. God doesn’t make mistakes. You won’t lose out on a thing. 😀